Baby Evan

Well this was definately NOT what I had in mind of how I would spend my past weekend! We knew that our baby Evan was going to die at some point but when that awful call came I was a bit in shock. I was just finishing up at work on Thursday afternoon when April called and said she hadn't felt Evan and she thought that he had passed away.

We rushed to the hospital and met her there. When Shawn came out of the room and gave us the news, it was heartbreaking. It is strange how even though we knew the certain outcome of her pregnancy, it was still such a shock and hurt so much when that time finally came. I personally think Karah took the news the hardest. It absolutely broke my heart to hear her cries and to feel her pain. She was so sad. She really wanted a little brother to play with and love.

The hospital was too crowded that day and so they had "No room at the Inn". They sent April home and told her to come back in the morning to get induced.

Her and Shawn went to the Great Salt Lake and watched the sun set. Here is a picture she had posted on her blog of that night. It represents the end of her journey with their little guy. I love this picture so much how the sun is poking through the clouds and April is standing their with her arms wrapped around her little one. BEAUTIFUL!

Well Friday turned out to be an extremely LOOOONNNGG day. April was such a trooper. We all waited around to get a chance to greet Evan. The girls were awesome. The whole family just stayed by her side waiting. She probably wanted some alone time but I personally didn't want to leave her side. By 11:00 pm still no Evan. Everyone was sent home and April said she would call when he was born.

I got the call around 3:30 that he had finally arrived. We packed up the girls and headed to the hospital. I couldn't wait to finally get the chance to hold my sweet grandson. When I got the news at Christmas time I was so excited to be having another grandchild. It is so sad that he wasn't able to spend some time with us. :(

April gave me a few pictures to share. Here are his delicate little hands. So tiny and sweet. He was so small that Shawn was able to put his wedding band around his wrist!

His feet were itty bitty too! The nurses were able to get some extremely cute footprints. When Karah first saw Evan his little feet were sticking out of the blanket and the very first thing that Boo did was start the "This little Piggy" story to him. "This little piggy went to the market......" So precious!

When I was finally able to hold my 6th grandchild my heart was full. He was beautiful! I could definately feel his sweet spirit in the room that morning. I didn't want to let him go. I was very sad but yet full of hope that someday We will be together again. I held him for quite some time throughout that day and just tried to memorize every single feature of "my little man". I wanted to get him imprinted on my mind forever! He had the cutest little button nose and the sweetest little lips. I loved to wrap his tiny hand around my finger. aaaaahhhh! So dang cute!

I never want to forget the joy I felt last Christmas, when I heard of his coming and the hope I feel today, about our reunion in the next life. What a darling little boy! I will deeply miss him.

There are more pictures but these are the only ones that April wishes I share at this time. I will post more as she allows it. I will always cherish this time I was able to spend with April and her family this past weekend. Thanks Ape!

And just a little message to my sweet daughter April..... First of all you are amazing to me. Your strength and endurance through the trials you are faced with is unbelievable. Your positive attitude in these situations, your unbelievable faith, and your love for your family is such an inspiration to me. I don't know if I could possibly handle the pains you have had to bear. My heart aches for you and Shawn and I want you to know of the deep love I have for you. You are a ROCK! Keep the faith and hang in there. Thanks for being such a wonderful example to me and our family. You are One Tough Cookie!!! Also.....Thanks for the laughs on Saturday night. Way funny! :) :) :)